Here I am, sitting in my little corner at 5 am in the morning wondering what to do with my life... Doesn't make any sense to you? Don't worry, doesn't make any sense to me either. Now I finally realise why 古人说:做人难,做好人更难。
Does it even matter that I'm just wasting my life away, thinking I'm achieving something, but I'm not? No I guess it doesn't matter... Not to you, nor to anyone else...
Here's a song that's been floating near the edge of my thoughts recently...I'm sure you know it is dedicated to you:
Reflections
Christina Aguilera
Look at me
You make think you see
Who I really am
But you'll never know me
Every day
It's as if I played a part
Now I see
If I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I cannot fool my heart
Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
I am now
In a world where I have to hide my heart
And what I believe in
But somehow
I will show the world
What's inside my heart
And be loved for who I am
Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
Why is my reflection
Someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
Someone else for all time?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
There's a heart that must be free to fly
That burns with a need to know the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel?
Must there be a secret me I'm forced to hide?
I won't pretend that I'm
Someone else
For all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?