"I don't want to lose the post-mortem" is a phrase sometimes used to describe a bid in bridge which says, "Partner please pick a denomination to play in" thereby absolving oneself of blame...
But I don't understand... It takes 2 hands to clap... why are you worried about losing the post-mortem when what is important is right here, right now, at the table? I suppose I shouldn't say the same thing to myself... I am not supposed to be such a selfish person (am I?)... who's gonna care whether or not I win or lose the post-mortem. Yet I simply can't grasp the concept...the utter simplicity, the stark reality, the bare bones of it all. It is not for me to decide absolution of blame...
Sometimes I wonder whether I'm getting delusional...
Someone once said: The quality of your life is determined by the quality of your decisions, and the quality of your decisions is determined by the quality of your thinking.