At 10 am in the morning...
Woke up at 955 am, the first time I woke up so early ever since the CSC camp, and never so early before the camp... Feeling really horrible now cause I turned in at 0530 as usual... Doesn't make for a beautiful me, I know... Especially after all that I've said regarding this issue. You know, I seriously don't know what's become of me anymore... Cold-blooded animal or deranged psychopath... Whatever happened to the genial, sociable and affable me? Lost time and again in a web of deceit, lies and facades? Or was it just a figment of an imagination that never was? Right now I don't have the stamina nor energy to think anymore...
At 10 pm at night...
10:02 pm... Extremely exhausted and just feel like collapsing on the bed as soon as I get home and have a nice hot bath. Right now I'm starting to feel rather sick... I guess the many consecutive nights of sleep deprivation are starting to exact their toll on me... I am slowly paying for my insolence...