Thursday, October 27, 2005
Yes mei... Just so long as you're happy, I don't mind being sick k...? And now that you've gone to bed... its time to unleash the terrible anguish.
First it was my mum. Then it was my mum again. And then it was her again!! How many times does this have to happen?! Its always her! Never fails to have double standards. Never fails to not understand. I'm so depressed I feel like crying already. But no I wont. Crying now would be to admit defeat. I'm not ready to give up. Not yet. The fact that I'm having a fever and a headache doesn't help one damned bit.
I'm seriously considering cancelling friday's lunch to attempt to console sheryl. Console sheryl? In my state? Yeah right. Just GTH will you.
I want to die. Help. And there is one more thing which comes back strongly as when it happened last year... But no one shall know about it.
I want to die.
Wishing for a guardian angel - time traveller