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Friday, March 31, 2006

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the Peacemaker
"I am at peace"
Peacemakers are receptive, good-natured, and supportive. They seek union with others and the world around them.

How to Get Along with Me
If you want me to do something, how you ask is important. I especially don't like expectations or pressure.
I like to listen and to be of service, but don't take advantage of this.
Listen until I finish speaking, even though I meander a bit.
Give me time to finish things and make decisions. It's OK to nudge me gently and nonjudgmentally.
Ask me questions to help me get clear.
Tell me when you like how I look. I'm not averse to flattery.
Hug me, show physical affection. It opens me up to my feelings.
I like a good discussion but not a confrontation.
Let me know you like what I've done or said.
Laugh with me and share in my enjoyment of life.

What I Like About Being a Nine
being nonjudgmental and accepting
caring for and being concerned about others
being able to relax and have a good time
knowing that most people enjoy my company; I'm easy to be around
my ability to see many different sides of an issue and to be a good mediator and facilitator
my heightened awareness of sensations, aesthetics, and the here and now
being able to go with the flow and feel one with the universe

What's Hard About Being a Nine
being judged and misunderstood for being placid and/or indecisive
being critical of myself for lacking initiative and discipline
being too sensitive to criticism; taking every raised eyebrow and twitch of the mouth personally
being confused about what I really want
caring too much about what others will think of me
not being listened to or taken seriously

Nines as Children Often
feel ignored and that their wants, opinions, and feelings are unimportant
tune out a lot, especially when others argue
are "good" children: deny anger or keep it to themselves

Nines as Parents
are supportive, kind, and warm are sometimes overly permissive or nondirective

the Romantic
you chose BY - your Enneagram type is FOUR.
"I am unique"
Romantics have sensitive feelings and are warm and perceptive.

How to Get Along with Me
Give me plenty of compliments. They mean a lot to me.
Be a supportive friend or partner. Help me to learn to love and value myself.
Respect me for my special gifts of intuition and vision.
Though I don't always want to be cheered up when I'm feeling melancholy, I sometimes like to have someone lighten me up a little.
Don't tell me I'm too sensitive or that I'm overreacting!

What I Like About Being a Four
my ability to find meaning in life and to experience feeling at a deep level
my ability to establish warm connections with people
admiring what is noble, truthful, and beautiful in life
my creativity, intuition, and sense of humor
being unique and being seen as unique by others
having aesthetic sensibilities
being able to easily pick up the feelings of people around me

What's Hard About Being a Four
experiencing dark moods of emptiness and despair
feelings of self-hatred and shame; believing I don't deserve to be loved
feeling guilty when I disappoint people
feeling hurt or attacked when someone misundertands me
expecting too much from myself and life
fearing being abandoned
obsessing over resentments
longing for what I don't have

Fours as Children Often
have active imaginations: play creatively alone or organize playmates in original game s
are very sensitive
feel that they don't fit in
believe they are missing something that other people have
attach themselves to idealized teachers, heroes, artists, etc.
become antiauthoritarian or rebellious when criticized or not understood
feel lonely or abandoned (perhaps as a result of a death or their parents' divorce)

Fours as Parents
help their children become who they really are
support their children's creativity and originality
are good at helping their children get in touch with their feelings
are sometimes overly critical or overly protective are usually very good with children if not too self-absorbed

Koped from chieh and i think xuet did this a while ago. So.
Both describe similar parts of me. So basically yes, this is how I work, what makes me tick.
Most of it is correct, up to an astonishing 90% for the first one and up to 70% for the second. I decided to post both, as you can see. The parts dealing with empathy, empathic powers and feelings are the ones that are most accurate.

So yes, I know all of you are reading this. I want to rediscover the empath in me. I want the old me that had an abundance of feelings. I want the old me that felt for other people. I want the old passionate me, the one that could love and needed to be loved. I want the old me that did not have a steel heart. I want all of that, and more.

I want to sidetrack a little:

For you:
You possess the mental capacity to think. You are bright and brilliant. Yet, however, you are looking but not seeing. You are hearing and yet not listening. You are feeling but not understanding. You would go far, if only you had that little bit of help. You need me.

Face the world with an open mind,
See the world with eyes wide open,
Feel the world with an open heart.
Look not at the past but at the present,
can you not hear the pleas for help?
Look not at the past but into the future,
can you not foresee the inevitable?
Spread your wings and fly,
but do not seperate from the pack,
Else you'll only see nothingness ahead,
And nothingness behind.

You made me think about a lot of things, review a lot of things. You also made me and YOU realise a lot of things. If you'd allow, I'll help you and help myself in the process.

For You:
You feel for others. You think for others. But you do not think enough for yourself. You will have to learn selfishness, to move from "others" to "me". You will have to learn that this is a harsh world, where the only shelter is within yourself and whoever deserves to have you extend that shelter to. You will have to learn that you are not alone. You need me, and vice-versa.

See yourself in others,
see yourself in yourself.
Take a step back,
view the bigger picture.
Take a step back,
relive the regrets.
Take a step back,
relive the joys.
Take a step back,
see the universe.
Take a step forward,
with confidence and audacity.
From ashes to ashes.

You made me learn a lot. You made me a better person. You let me re-learn the importance of thinking for others, feeling for others. I have taken from you, you have taken from me. But you have not taken away enough from me.

For YOU:
You understand how the world works. You see people's needs. You feel for people. You live life as it is. Alas you did not realise that it was not enough. You sometimes cannot see what you need. You sometimes dont even know what you need. Above all, you need to learn that playing "cops-and-robbers" and weathering heavy thunderstorms without shelter is detrimental to you. You need me. And I need you.

Laugh, and the world laughs with you.
Cry, and I alone cry with you.
Do not be afraid to be brave,
because it is what you are.
Do not be afraid to bare your soul,
because it is what you need.
Do not bear the weight of the world on your shoulders,
because you will crumble.
Face the sky and shout "cogito ergo sum,"
because it is who you really are.

Yes you are self-sufficient. And perhaps you just needed me to come along to make you even more so. But I want you to know me for what I am, to see me for what I am, to need me for what I am.
And before blowing someone else's shelter down, make sure you are willing to share yours with that someone. :D

For me:
(perhaps one day I will post this. But I would rather either You or YOU post this)

Having said all that...I want to find myself.

I realise that I blog most often when I am feeling. This is good.
-hugs self. hugs everyone. hugs world.-

Random muse: No matter how shattered the heart is, no matter how many pieces it breaks into, it will still go on beating. And perhaps someday, an angel will mend it. -timetraveller

Do you simply walk up to God and ask, "May I have an angel please?"
-timetraveller

Searching for the old self - timetraveller