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Sunday, March 05, 2006

Ahhhh finally. Hello again my blog. Have you been well?
I figured that if I didnt start soon I'd never get started. The procrastination must stop! There's so many things I want to say.

Lets start with 3 weeks ago... the week before chinese new year. It was an ordinary tuesday like any other, if memory serves me well...

And the draft of the post stopped here. There's too much to be said, just too much.

Well here goes nothing.

Its now 5 weeks (as opposed to the 3 weeks stated above) due to further procrastination. I still remember what happened on tuesday. When I walked into the lift at my block (I think I was coming home from school), there was this kid that smiled at me. A smile of pure innocence. If only I had a camera to capture that moment. It was a winning smile, a touching smile. And it made my day.

The next significant event happened on the thursday of that same week. On the way to school. I had decided to take a bus at 830am. Which turned out to be very wrong... There were lots of polytechnic students and the buses were crowded. Thats right. Buses. I must have missed at least 4. Was so ticked off. Well what to do... We all learn from mistakes. So I got on this bus in the end, got myself a seat and prepared to snooze. It was about 9 and I was already at least a half hour late. Rather than sit and chide myself for having made a bad decision I just decided to sleep it off. So it was, and there was this girl beside me, also snoozing. We all know how we can involuntary lean to one side while snoozing (I learnt to control it years ago). Apparently this girl was so tired that she gradually leaned over till her weight was upon me. I seriously did not consider this to be a problem till her head was on my shoulder. Hmm. Being the perfect gentleman I gently pushed her away which woke her up (naturally) and made her quite embarassed. I must confess its the first time it ever happened to me. Lots of girls out there will have experiences of guys (un)knowingly doing this all the time, but as for the guys out there? How many times has it happened to you with a girl? None I suppose. Girls are supposed to be so prudent. Hmm. Well, it was about time for her to alight anyway (and no, people snoozing on buses and trains are fully capable of waking themselves up when they get to their destination; it has to do with the sub-conscious) at SP. On second thoughts she was a cute chick...

Let us assume for simplicity's sake that nothing else happened between then and now, and I'll do my best not to be philosophical.

So...

Life is semi-bad.

Ugh. Its not possible to pretend 5 weeks never happened ok?

So uhm... I guess I've been lazing around for 5 weeks. Yay. I crave more holidays. Keep thinking when the 3 month break will come.

Doesnt sound very promising does it? You want to talk studies? Fine. Modern physics is okay. In fact its simple. Less so for electricity and magnetism topics. I just cant describe why. As for classical mechanics and statistical mechanics? They're downright killers. Ok its cause I havent been doing my reading and deriving and such. But its just abstract in the worst sense of the word. Its a couple hundred pages of mathematics and you're supposed to understand the physics from it. Absolutely disgusting. And it doesnt even feel like I'm taking Genes and Soc!! Something is very very wrong.

Right. Enough rambling. On to happier stuff. Well I dont know if you can call it happier or not. Its about bridge. I mean, there's lots of stuff that make me happy, but bridge is for the most part, the one with the highest frequency. For one, it takes away the boredom of a school week. For another, Erick and I got 2nd student pair in the NTU open. Granted, its not the best result in the world, and we ended up 8th overall, but we both decided that we were performing way under par for that day. Possibly the rain caused it. Lol joking. But thats at least something to rejoice about. My first bridge trophy!! Well for one thing bridge tourneys seldom give out trophies. For another, my cupboard is already bursting with all my chess trophies. There's about 15 or so I think. Anyway coming back to the main point... Its the 8th week now... and Erick and I have only had one system discussion session so far! This is cos of all the holidays and such occuring during the weeks when we were supposed to have discussion. So the next one is next tuesday. Better make the most of it, methinks. This is bad, in a way. We were supposed to implement the new system fully by the end of this semester...
Right... who else havent I written about...?
Of course its that person.
She's been taking lessons from me.
And today was only the second session, also largely due to saturday commitments and tests and whatnot. I must say progress is slow, but there is progress, albeit too slowly. Ok I just repeated myself in the same sentence. So, progress is slow, and I foresee even slower progress due to exams and such. Ugh.

I wish...
it were not this way
I wish...
I had a guardian angel
I wish...
I had a guiding hand
Well no use grumbling. Hmm...

I realised that I haven't played a single dota game for close to 2 months. Or even more. The PS2 addiction has come back! In the form of Resident Evil 4. Ugh. Just dont want to complete The Mercenaries... But maybe I'll do it anyway... During the holidays that is. Yeah, my gaming life is now boring too. How sad...

Anyway I felt very strange today
Really really strange
I cant describe it
Except that maybe it was a premonition of things to come
Perhaps it was nothing at all
Maybe I was just scaring myself
Or maybe there really is something
I dont know anymore

I told myself this would be a really long post. Guess I've sort of fulfilled it.
But no its not the end yet
Then again, there's so much more I want to say.
Did you know, mei, that the thing I wanted to talk to you about
I dont know how to continue...
Actually has to do with your leadership abilities
Hmm lets start with more(!) resolutions for the rest of the semester
Some people are born leaders, others are not
First up would be of course to revise as much as possible.
While it may be possible to learn how to be one
Then next up would be to do as many problems as possible.
I think whats important is the X-factor
Wow I can see I'm in for it already.
It is innate
And next on the list of priorities, would be to attempt to finish discussing the system with erick.
And I dont think you have it
Well I guess that list is pretty extensive.
And you're trying to press on so hard
Oh there is one more thing!
You cant even see where you're heading
Its about driving!!
I dont want to see you struggling futilely
I dont know when I'm gonna get started too! Argh.
Dont you know it pains me to see you in agony
Daniel also hasnt done it, so we can do it together.
I just want you to be a normal person
Must remember to call him to check.
And I wish you would grow up
Well, its 0334 hours already. And I've gotta study for the 44 test tomorrow. Guess thats it for now. Tatas blog. Goodnight.

If your heart acquires strength, you will be able to remove blemishes from others without thinking evil of them. - Mohandas K. Gandhi