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Wednesday, April 05, 2006

Looking back at my september 25th 2005 post, I realise that a lot of the later part of the post nearly describes what I want to say. (disclaimer: I dont really like the idea of reading my previous posts, but I needed inspiration). And I have Suteki Da Ne looping on my media player.

Reminds me of this song:

November Rain
When I look into your eyes
I can see a love restrained
But darlin' when I hold you
Don't you know I feel the same

'Cause nothin' lasts forever
And we both know hearts can change
And it's hard to hold a candle
In the cold November rain

We've been through this such a long long time
Just tryin' to kill the pain

But lovers always come and lovers always go
An no one's really sure who's lettin' go today
Walking away

If we could take the time to lay it on the line
I could rest my head just knowin' that you were mine
All mine
So if you want to love me then darlin' don't refrain
Or I'll just end up walkin' in the cold November rain

Do you need some time... on your own
Do you need some time... all alone
Everybody needs some time... on their own
Don't you know you need some time... all alone

I know it's hard to keep an open heart
When even friends seem out to harm you
But if you could heal a broken heart
Wouldn't time be out to charm you

Sometimes I need some time... on my own
Sometimes I need some time... all alone
Everybody needs some time... on their own
Don't you know you need some time... all alone

And when your fears subside and shadows still remain, oh yeah
I know that you can love me when there's no one left to blame
So never mind the darkness we still can find a way
'Cause nothin' lasts forever even cold November rain

You're not the only one
You're not the only one
Don't ya think that you need somebody
Don't ya think that you need someone
Everybody needs somebody
You're not the only one
You're not the only one

Don't ya think that you need somebody
Don't ya think that you need someone
Everybody needs somebody
You're not the only one
You're not the only one

Don't ya think that you need somebody
Don't ya think that you need someone
Everybody needs somebody
You're not the only one
You're not the only one

Don't ya think that you need somebody
Don't ya think that you need someone
Everybody needs somebody

Isnt it strange that many times we think we are helping people, but actually we are not? Sometimes we actually make things worse than they are.
Many times, we also make things out to be worse than they actually are.
Is this intrinsic human nature?
We are what we are. That makes us human.
What's inside is what we are. That makes us human.

I know I didnt help one bit. Maybe I even made it worse. Its like looking at your house burn down and knowing the nearest water source was 2 kilometres away. Maybe I even mistook kerosene for water and doused it on the fire.

*breathes*

*chokes on the smoke*

But the bottom line is, maybe all you really wanted and needed was some time to yourself. Maybe I was too blinded to see, hear, and feel that.

I fear. For you. For myself. For everyone involved.
And no I'm not the kind who goes the only thing to fear is fear itself, because I am only human. Fear makes us human.

Its hard not to think about it, because... Its just there. Maybe everyone's been to pre-occupied with it. Maybe I was too presumptuous. Maybe all this was unnecessary.

I dont know anymore.

But what's been said has already been said.
But if I hadn't opened my mouth I wouldn't have known about all these. Right now somebody will just need to believe in herself.

Mariah Carey - Hero

There's a hero
If you look inside your heart
You don't have to be afraid
Of what you are
There's an answer
If you reach into your soul
And the sorrow that you know
Will melt away

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

It's a long road
When you face the world alone
No one reaches out a hand
For you to hold
You can find love
If you search within yourself
And the emptiness you felt
Will disappear

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

Lord knows
Dreams are hard to follow
But don't let anyone
Tear them away
Hold on
There will be tomorrow
In time
You'll find the way

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

The person who tries to live alone will not succeed as a human being. Her heart withers if it does not answer another heart. Her mind shrinks away if she hears only the echoes of her own thoughts and finds no other inspiration