It got through. Finally. After some hard work and some near misses, it finally went through. Ok that is one plus point. And another (happy) burden. And one thing off my mind and one more thing on my mind.
Ok that said...
Hmm maybe I shouldnt even be talking about this.
Ok for the sakes of the people involved, this matter will be under wraps.
I shall remain hopeful as always and hope for the best.
And it has nothing to do with bridge.
But...there is one thing though. You havent been talking to me a lot. I dont even know what happened...
Ok yes I've been caught up elsewhere (to say the least), but it was... how do I say this. Ok yes I know you want my attention. And I am doing whatever I can on top of everything else. Ok I can see that maybe You're concerned that she and I going too fast, but I think... You should just trust me to take care of myself. I've been doing fine in that aspect for the past 7 years.
Ahhh yes. 7 years. The magical number seven...
Nevermind that number. Just another inconsequential thought.
Ok Yanni's "To Take... To Hold" is looping now... A nice piece to help me reflect.
I have a zillion thoughts running through my head at light speed now.
YOUR headache. Trainings. League cup/match. Test on monday. Exams. Tuition kid. YOU, You, and you. Life, the universe, and everything.
I mean, ya okay I wasnt watching the time, I had a lot going through my head, six msn convos at once, and I didnt conciously realise when it was 0000 already. So I missed wishing You k? And ok I JUST HAD TO come up with some lame excuse of saying I wanted to do it when I saw You later. And right now my brain is conjuring more excuses like "Its not my style to wish people on the dot." Ok yes I havent wished anyone for the past 5 years except my mum, and just like You wished me on the dot I wanted to do the same for You, just once. So dumbandstupidandidiotic gilby just had to go and get himself busy and all his thoughts mixed up to forget to wish a special person on the dot. -whacksselfslapsselfbangsheadonwall
I guess I just wanted to say sorry. I know how much it meant to you. And. Happy Birthday.
elationandjoyturnedtodejectionandsorrow - a timetraveller with mixed feelings