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Tuesday, May 02, 2006

Hmm. Exams are over. So much for that. It always happens. Been waiting for this day for very long, then when it comes, you have no idea what to do cause theres too much time on your hands.

Well, here's my to-do list:
1) Take good care of my angel.
2) Pack the house.
3) Arrange the stuff on my harddrives. There's 0.8 TB of it.
4) Give my tuition kid the attention he needs.
5) Teach bridge.
6) Revise the past 6 schooling years' worth of work.
7) Get in some play time.

Pretty exhaustive list.

Oh, and I've completed the tbc post on the 27th of march and decided on a topic for the post on the 30th of march. So much for that.

Well, phase one of packing the house has started. Remember there was one time I lost all my writings and works? Well, I just found one of them. Written by Xu Kangfei. Although I have no idea where she is now. Yup. And I spent 15 minutes painstakingly typing out the 1106 words of the essay. But it was worth it (and i realised my typing speed has deproved due to my long nails... Will cut them later). The story is an excellent one for a 14-year-old.

And I recently made headway on procuring plastic cards. Haha. So much for that. 4 or 5 decks should suffice. And for free too. Heh.

Oh. And mervyn approached me earlier to ask me to join the csc camp this year as a councillor! Yay! Haha. Apparently lixian forgot to put my name down... But anyway I'm in, so its a good thing. Haha. Well, yup. Thats mostly what happened today. Oops. Yesterday, rather.

A lot's been going on in the past 2,3 weeks. You can say I've neglected my angel a lot. Not to mention a lot of other people. Ok, first things first. Hmm. 小mei has been. Distant. Well what can I say. Its not an easy time. For any of us. I hope the days that you've spent without me, you've spent growing up and finding yourself. There comes a time when you have to walk out of that small little cove you call home and touch this big, big world and all its intricacies. Yup. Its a complex world out there, with lots of strange people and weird things. But no matter how far out you go, the most profound discoveries, are within us, woven into the threads that bind us to each other. Look not to me as your foundation, but look to me as your guiding hand. Only when you have learned to do all that will you really know what it means, to be human. -hugs.

She's strong-willed. She's a nice person. And she's the one I call my angel. To others, she's the kind of person who seems to have things going her way most of the time. It is partly true. So often, people fail to see the other side. I, however, know better (its what guardian angels are for). For the past couple of weeks, it is perhaps safe to say that I've been through your highs (were there any?) and lows with you (I still want to know the whole story on what happened...). And yesterday afternoon/evening, when you told me about all that... My heart just nearly broke into pieces. I was speechless. No...Speechless is not the word. Appalled is more like it. It takes a fantastic leap of faith to believe all that could happen. I now begin to see why you had to resort to all those measures. I dont think a lesser person would be able to last till now...
I know it hurts talking about it. Which is why I'm kicking myself for not being able to be there for you those past weeks. You look to me as a tower of strength, a pillar of hope. And it is what I intend to do - to be the one who walks in when the whole world walks out. You know that my sanctuary has a doorway but no door...
It seems that the more I know you, the more I am... drawn to you. Lets not give up. There's always a better tomorrow. -hugss.

P.S. And yes I did miss you while you were away.

Love never dies a natural death. It dies because we don't know how to replenish its source. It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals. It dies of illness and wounds; it dies of weariness, of witherings, of tarnishings. - Anais Nin

If you have love in your life it can make up for a great many things you lack. If you don't have it, no matter what else there is, it's not enough. - Ann Landers

And last but not least, my personal favourite, and probably the most meaningful one I've come across:
Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking.
It is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails.
I Corinthians 13:4-8